*I* need an attitude adjustment...

[fiberaddict]

yes, ME, not Herself this time. :sigh:

I've been cleaning the Master Bedroom. Cleaning is when the Lord and I - mostly me - talk...and I have a bad attitude right now. I am ready to leave everything and follow Him - I am! really! - but...it burns me that if things play out the way the church teaches, I'll be leaving all my preps for someone else.

I am suffering from Ant syndrome (you know, from Aesop's fable, the Grasshopper and the Ant?).

I've done all this work - willingly! - to prep, doing everything He prompted me to do....and if the Rapture is the way the church teaches, I'll be leaving all of it for someone who refused to listen. More than likely, someone who claims to be chrischun, but who wasn't watching or listening...and it's really pissing me off. :sigh:

I KNOW what they're in for. I KNOW it's not going to be easy, and that my preps will be a blessing.....but that doesn't help my attitude, especially when I imagine who'll probably end up here. (Family member, probably - IF they're smart enough to drop their stupid prejudices about country living and get their butts OUT here, and IF they're even smarter and STAY here. Frankly, I have my doubts...but it's not my problem.) I am worried about the critters - if they stay, too, then whoever gets the house will get them. Even if I do leave detailed notes for whoever, they won't care about the critters like we have....and *that* bothers me.

I know I don't need to worry - the Lord will take care of things.....but my attitude sucks right now. I KNOW I need to work on that.....but today is just...I guess it's just not a good day.

I'm working on it....but right now? My attitude is worse than Herself's.....:sigh:

Comments

[hugh_mannity]

Leave it to me! I'm definitely not getting raptured and I'll take good care of your critters. (Just joking)

[fiberaddict]

Hon, if you get here before my family, you're welcome to it all. (And I'm only half joking.....the job market here isn't *horrid*, but it's not great, no matter what our gov'nor says. The housing market is just now starting to fall here - well, not the market so much, but the foreclosure rate is just now starting to rise.

And honestly? I'd feel better about a fellow Thriller in charge of my critters! But that's another LONG story.....

[(Anonymous)]

((hugs))

I'm expecting to leave it all to someone else, and duuuude there have been so many preps this month.

I guess I figure we've had enough stuff come from other folks' preps over the years, it doesn't seem right to close my fists over it.

I admit to being a bit ... two minded... on missing out on some of the nice things planned, but more because of wasted years than anything else.

_ hearth

[fiberaddict]

Well, none of this STUFF is mine anyway - it's all His. I KNOW that. I GET that. it's just....:sigh:

I'm better this AM.....I guess I just needed to throw a tantrum or something.

Re: Missing out....yeah. I look at my kids and think "Man. No college, no this, no that..." then I smack myself because what they'll have is SO MUCH better!

Rapture

[(Anonymous)]

I'm not entirely sure we WON'T take our stuff with us. Lot had time to pack. So did Noah. And those NINE free-range chickens have permanently moved into my yard and are now roosting at night in the tree off my deck. I figure the Lord sent them over for such a time as this. ((wink!))

Re: Rapture

[fiberaddict]

Thank you!

I keep telling myself that the Hebrews had their stuff in Goshen, and Noah had, well, ALL the animals......and He spared Dusty. I keep hanging on to that - I don't care about the *house*, or all the stuff I have; it's the critters.

I asked myself yesterday, if there was a fire, and my kids and critters were guaranteed safe, what would I grab? The only thing? My Norwegian Saxony spinning wheel. Everything else would get left, but I'd grab that if I could.

Kinda put stuff in perspective.....