Mental Meanderings...
Mar. 19th, 2012 10:27 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
fiberaddictHeadache this morning from lack of sleep. Been puzzling over things......so I'll dump 'em here and let someone ELSE worry with it. :heh:
The past few weeks I've had this little voice in my head telling me to slack off on school. I mean, why do the kids need school if we're not gonna be here past Passover? (That's the mildest "message"). I keep telling the voice that a) I don't know for SURE that we won't be here after Passover - what if Passover is just a wake-up call, and nothing happens until RH? (to which the voice replies, well, RH isn't THAT far off of Passover, so what's the big deal?) and b) I don't want to face my Father and tell him "You know those kids you gave me? And arranged for me to teach 'em? Yeah. Um....I figured what the heck - they didn't need to learn anything, 'cause YOU know it all, and they could ask YOU when we got there, so.....here ya go!" I kinda don't think that would fly, do you?
(b) usually shuts the voice up for a bit.
Only, now it's started pushing church on me again. :sigh: THAT one's not going to work, because the church is just a huge deception. Don't believe me?
God says over and over and OVER in the OT to not mix the holy and the profane. Why were the Israelites constantly being punished? Because they'd marry pagans and adapt their practices into God's directions. Even though they'd been told OVER AND OVER to NOT do it.
And....most churches love to break the 2nd commandment - that of "no graven images". I prefer the way the Complete Jewish Bible translates it: "You are not to make for yourselves a carved image or any kind of representation of anything in heaven above, on the earth beneath or in the water below the shoreline. You are not to bow down to them or serve them.....".....and yet, EVERY church I've ever been in has a cross displayed somewhere, and they honor it - some churches bow down to it at the start and end of each service. Um.
Remember when Moses was on the mountain, and God went ballistic over the whole "golden cow" thing? Yeah.....and yet it's OK for today's church to do the SAME thing, because it's a cross and therefore that makes it kosher? Not even.....that's mixing holy with profane, AND making an image for themselves to represent God. What did He say in Exodus? DON'T DO IT.
Look.....I noticed most of the pagan things in church back in middle school (I went thru a Tolkien phase, and did a lot of reading on where he got his ideas. Most of them can be traced back to the Eldar Edda, a Norse mythological cycle. LOTS of pagan stuff there (of course - it's a pagan myth cycle)...which got me looking at the stuff in my church that resembled it. Christmas trees? Pagan. Decorating with greenery? Pagan. Hanging ornaments on the tree? Pagan (and still done today at "holy shrines"). Easter......it's even worse. Eggs? Decorating the cross (which the churches here make out of the trunk of the tree used for the Christmas services) with flowers? Pagan. (And I'm not going into the actual dates Christmas and Easter are on......both are pagan to the hilt.)(And...the whole ham-as-Easter-dinner thing. Do you honestly think Jesus ATE ham? A non-kosher food? And yet the church has no problems with *serving* ham on a festival that supposedly HONORS Jesus? And chrischuns have no problems with this.......)
And yet...most members will tell you it's no big deal, and to calm down. Really? I kinda think that if God "flipped his shit" over the golden calf, He might kind of think that what the church is doing now is a Big Deal.
I don't care that you think YOUR church is different. If they display a cross and it is used to represent Christ, they're breaking the 2nd commandment. (And that goes for you in your house, too...there's nothing wrong with the cross itself - it's what it REPRESENTS. See Exodus 20:3-6. It's FORBIDDEN.) I don't care that your pastor can "talk the talk" - if he's not walking the walk (and let me assure you, I've yet to meet a pastor that actually teaches the ENTIRE BIBLE, as it's written), then you are being misled. If they lead a Christmas service, or an Easter service, they are mixing the holy with the profane, and you are being misled.
Yeah, I've been told that that's OT, and Jesus wiped that out. Where does it say that? Jesus said that He didn't come to abolish Torah (OT!), he came to fulfill it. And, He said that if you loved Him, you would keep His commandments. Since the NT wasn't written at that time (and, in fact, wasn't written to be published - it's just a bunch of letters sent to various groups of believers)......what do you suppose He was talking about? (Hint: It's the first part of your Bible. The.....OT!)
I'm tired, and I'm out of sorts. I'm sick of all the "oooh, come celebrate Easter with us!" signs I see around here. I'm sick of people - who claim to be Christ followers - NOT doing what Christ told them to do. And I'm sick of that little insidious voice trying to tell me that I *need* to go to church, because Believers were told to worship together. Bah.
Today's churches may worship together, but I sincerely doubt that they are worshipping the One that they think they are. And I won't be a part of that.
The past few weeks I've had this little voice in my head telling me to slack off on school. I mean, why do the kids need school if we're not gonna be here past Passover? (That's the mildest "message"). I keep telling the voice that a) I don't know for SURE that we won't be here after Passover - what if Passover is just a wake-up call, and nothing happens until RH? (to which the voice replies, well, RH isn't THAT far off of Passover, so what's the big deal?) and b) I don't want to face my Father and tell him "You know those kids you gave me? And arranged for me to teach 'em? Yeah. Um....I figured what the heck - they didn't need to learn anything, 'cause YOU know it all, and they could ask YOU when we got there, so.....here ya go!" I kinda don't think that would fly, do you?
(b) usually shuts the voice up for a bit.
Only, now it's started pushing church on me again. :sigh: THAT one's not going to work, because the church is just a huge deception. Don't believe me?
God says over and over and OVER in the OT to not mix the holy and the profane. Why were the Israelites constantly being punished? Because they'd marry pagans and adapt their practices into God's directions. Even though they'd been told OVER AND OVER to NOT do it.
And....most churches love to break the 2nd commandment - that of "no graven images". I prefer the way the Complete Jewish Bible translates it: "You are not to make for yourselves a carved image or any kind of representation of anything in heaven above, on the earth beneath or in the water below the shoreline. You are not to bow down to them or serve them.....".....and yet, EVERY church I've ever been in has a cross displayed somewhere, and they honor it - some churches bow down to it at the start and end of each service. Um.
Remember when Moses was on the mountain, and God went ballistic over the whole "golden cow" thing? Yeah.....and yet it's OK for today's church to do the SAME thing, because it's a cross and therefore that makes it kosher? Not even.....that's mixing holy with profane, AND making an image for themselves to represent God. What did He say in Exodus? DON'T DO IT.
Look.....I noticed most of the pagan things in church back in middle school (I went thru a Tolkien phase, and did a lot of reading on where he got his ideas. Most of them can be traced back to the Eldar Edda, a Norse mythological cycle. LOTS of pagan stuff there (of course - it's a pagan myth cycle)...which got me looking at the stuff in my church that resembled it. Christmas trees? Pagan. Decorating with greenery? Pagan. Hanging ornaments on the tree? Pagan (and still done today at "holy shrines"). Easter......it's even worse. Eggs? Decorating the cross (which the churches here make out of the trunk of the tree used for the Christmas services) with flowers? Pagan. (And I'm not going into the actual dates Christmas and Easter are on......both are pagan to the hilt.)(And...the whole ham-as-Easter-dinner thing. Do you honestly think Jesus ATE ham? A non-kosher food? And yet the church has no problems with *serving* ham on a festival that supposedly HONORS Jesus? And chrischuns have no problems with this.......)
And yet...most members will tell you it's no big deal, and to calm down. Really? I kinda think that if God "flipped his shit" over the golden calf, He might kind of think that what the church is doing now is a Big Deal.
I don't care that you think YOUR church is different. If they display a cross and it is used to represent Christ, they're breaking the 2nd commandment. (And that goes for you in your house, too...there's nothing wrong with the cross itself - it's what it REPRESENTS. See Exodus 20:3-6. It's FORBIDDEN.) I don't care that your pastor can "talk the talk" - if he's not walking the walk (and let me assure you, I've yet to meet a pastor that actually teaches the ENTIRE BIBLE, as it's written), then you are being misled. If they lead a Christmas service, or an Easter service, they are mixing the holy with the profane, and you are being misled.
Yeah, I've been told that that's OT, and Jesus wiped that out. Where does it say that? Jesus said that He didn't come to abolish Torah (OT!), he came to fulfill it. And, He said that if you loved Him, you would keep His commandments. Since the NT wasn't written at that time (and, in fact, wasn't written to be published - it's just a bunch of letters sent to various groups of believers)......what do you suppose He was talking about? (Hint: It's the first part of your Bible. The.....OT!)
I'm tired, and I'm out of sorts. I'm sick of all the "oooh, come celebrate Easter with us!" signs I see around here. I'm sick of people - who claim to be Christ followers - NOT doing what Christ told them to do. And I'm sick of that little insidious voice trying to tell me that I *need* to go to church, because Believers were told to worship together. Bah.
Today's churches may worship together, but I sincerely doubt that they are worshipping the One that they think they are. And I won't be a part of that.
aNNa'S NoTe:
Date: 2012-03-20 12:49 pm (UTC)Here's where I go devil's advocate on you: If a) something is prodding you to clean/remodel like crazy, and b) something is prodding you to stop schooling your children, and c) something is prodding you to go back to church... and you know that (c) is a misleading attack... Then WHY are you not considering that for the other two?
The school thing - it keeps routine in the kids' lives. It's good for them. It's educational. It builds character. It's grounding (especially for your Aspie). We're commanded to raise up our children, teaching them. So any prompting in another direction would also be a misleading attack. And if (c) is misleading and (b) is misleading...
Here's where you get mad at me: Why the HELL would Yehovah want you to remodel/paint/build something temporal this close to the feasts/possible rapture? If we take our stuff with us to another plane, there'll be LOTS of time (and provisions) for what we need to do, then. I see it as another distraction, aimed at keeping you from spending the last few weeks with your family and on strengthening your faith, y'know? The same with the whole sewing BS. I'm just saying... if you had three weeks left to live, would you REALLY spend them glazing your floor, or having adventures with the ones you love, growing closer to the Lord in anticipation for the day... y'know? I guess I'm weird - if my family inherits a disaster area (aka, my house), THEY can clean it. I want it obvious that I spent the last days of my human life on being Mary, not Martha. But then, I've felt for over a year now that if we don't have the preps we need now (end of 2010), then it's too late. That's part of the reason why I've gone the route of family bonding/adventures for 2011 and 2012. Building relationships with my kids, husband, and Abba Adonai has moved to the forefront. So of COURSE what is the enemy going to do? Try to compromise that with misinformation, distractions, and promptings in the wrong direction.
Just another (outside) perspective.
Re: aNNa'S NoTe:
Date: 2012-03-20 01:47 pm (UTC)Painting: the kids are helping, and actually enjoying it. We're still doing bonding things (the trek this weekend to Ikea. Not a typical bonding activity, to be sure, but it was fun. They both gave me ideas - and it was fun.). The only "big" project is the garage conversion, and we paid someone else to do it.
I'm trying not to let the house consume us - I'd much rather play. So far, it's been ok....but you've given me food for thought.
Re: aNNa'S NoTe:
Date: 2012-03-24 01:36 pm (UTC)From ali
Date: 2012-03-20 02:39 pm (UTC)I have been getting a lot of hints to get back into fellowship. But of course, like all y'all - I can't go to church. It seems to be kryptonite to me.
Yesterday I had a friend come over, we had such a good time playign board games with the kids. We talked about religion for um eight minutes? And she was here for 5 hours? But I am really missing that connection with people.
Also yesterday these people come over to pick up chickens - they had a family with EIGHT kids! and they all came spilling out of their mini van to play with the goats - that was So Much fun! Oh how I miss teaching in sunday school, because I love kids so much...and now since church is on my naughty list I feel like I have my talent buried.
I am suppossed to be loving God above all and loving my neighbor as myself - and if I am never around my neighbors I am having a hard time with number two on the list. But I can't figure out how to connect with people and be cut off form the church at the same time.
Dang - that was random, sorry for blogging your comments. somedays I feel like my only neighbors are in this stupid box on my desk...
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Date: 2012-03-21 12:41 am (UTC)“Three times a year you shall celebrate a feast to Me. You shall observe the Feast of Unleavened Bread; for seven days you are to eat unleavened bread, as I commanded you… And none shall appear before Me empty-handed. Also you shall observe the Feast of the Harvest of the first fruits of your labors from what you sow in the field; also the Feast of the Ingathering at the end of the year when you gather in the
fruit of your labors from the field. Three times a year all your males
shall appear before the Lord GOD. (Ex.23:14-17)"
I always took this verse literally, giving the first fruits to God, but I don't HAVE a garden or anything. But then I realized that my personal fruits aren't literal. My children are my labors, their knowledge and upbringing are the seeds I'm sowing. I decided right then and there that there are things that need to be put aside in order to nourish my children. I've loosened up on housework, I spend less time on the computer. I've made my children and husband the focus so that when I present the fruits of my labors, He doesn't say to me "Your house looks great, but your family is lacking." I want the best possible offering that I can give. So I'm ignoring those tiny little voices if they disagree with this.
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Date: 2012-03-21 12:44 am (UTC)